well if you're not actually here/ does it all really even matter?

I'm getting a bit of gentle hazing about the current object of my affections. He's youngish, incredibly easy on the eyes and possesses an unfortunate name. Obviously we could never have children :P

Still. Not really sure what's with what. Part of me screams GIRL WHATCHU DOING HE DON'T SEEM INTERESTED IN YOU HE DON'T GO TO NO UNIVERSITY AND HE DON'T HAVE NO AMBITION NO DRIVE NO DESIRE TO GO FURTHER WHAT ARE YOU CRAZY and the other half just kind of melts at the sight of his profile. I am such a shallow little creep sometimes. OK, most of the time. I'm still not sure if he reads, if he can spell, if he's remotely interested in me, but my friends are having a lot of fun and it's yeah, kind of nice to be teased a little.

What do I have to lose, I guess?

Life is being stressworthy, so I'm doing more baking than usual. Carrot cake with cream-cheese icing today!

oh for christ's sake

fuck ever telling anybody what I really think of them ever again, it always goes down the fucking toilet.