Angi-Ang-A-Decade-In-The-Life

Dear Rob,

It is 1:01am and we went to bed three hours ago. Today has been a strange day and I feel very distant. You told me that everything is OK but I don't know if it is. Today, I thought to myself, what if this never gets any easier?

I know that there are always tough spots and I know that all relationships will need to weather these tough spots. It feels like there have been quite a few lately, and it also feels like this one doesn't seem to have much of an expiry date - at least, not in the foreseeable future.

I have been trying to think about my feelings about Angi, Rob's Ex-Wife. I have been trying to separate them from my feelings about Angi, Rob's Close Friend. I used to think I was OK at it but maybe I am not that good. I think this is because I think Angi, Rob's Close Friend is a little closer than any regular close friend ever will be, and because a decade (plus) in the life colours everything.

I think it would be hard for any woman in my shoes, but I am not dealing very well.


I made an appointment with my GP and I think I am going to ask for a referral to a therapist.

Love,
Susan

Curious George

there's a fissure we have to fix between me and R.


it's been there a little while. maybe it's not having as much sex anymore, maybe it's that notion that he doesn't understand *why* things make me feel a particular way, or maybe it's something to do with me.

either way, when Curious George at work flirted with me, there was a part of me that fantasised about it. about what it would be like to sleep with him - an undeniably attractive man.

Really fucking happy.

R.